[He gave a weird laugh sob at the words and shook his head sharply.]

When I got here, I was so happy to not be dead. So hey, if I could be alive back home it'd be just as happy there but it's not, and I don't know what happened, but I'm sorry.

Okay? I don't- I don't understand why and it's not like I can make it unhappen.

It just makes me wish I really had died like I thought I had.

I can't offer more than that. [Messy crying ahoy, so, sorry bout that.]